Week Three.

Photo Three.

Observations: This is my new home. Apartment 7 and I absolutely love it. The place is starting to get more and more homey everyday, granted the progress is slow. Just today I got all the walls painted after almost a week. I am ecstatic to be living on my own for the first time in my life. It is really liberating. I am standing on my own two feet, which doesn’t mean that I don’t need help from my loved ones every once and while, but that the everyday ebbs and flows of life are mine and mine alone. Ever since I was young I have been terrified of being alone, in every sense of the term. The thoughts that went through my mind when I didn’t have someone else to distract me were too consuming to bear. I didn’t like having so much room to think. Now, I find myself excited to come home from work or going out to a place where I can do absolutely anything I want. There is no one here I have to please. No one here I have to entertain. No one here I have to answer to. Definitely a feeling I am getting use to. One of my favorite things about my apartment is waking up to the sun or rain out the three huge windows across from my bed. The city lights peek through the barren trees and rooftops making me feel like I’m tucked just a little bit away from all the action. This apartment is part of my new life as an adult that I’m greatly looking forward to. As a kid the idea of growing up seemed terrifying. I imagined I would one day wake up with tons of responsibilities and hate my life. Thank god only some of this happens and you only have to hate your life if you look at it that way. I am grateful I wasn’t shocked into adulthood like some, but have been able to slowly dip my feet in and wade into the waters at my own pace. I think I’m finally ready to swim.

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